why would she choose him over by Pained-Heart, literature
Literature
why would she choose him over
why would she choose him over me?
he beats her
blames her for his mistakes.
why him over me?
he screams
yells and throws
breaks things
over me she chooses him?
she says "enough"
he says "I'll change"
buys her a ring
he lies
she knows
so why...
choose him over me?
what am i to you
am i just a friend
or boyfriend
are you with him
or is it me
you know what i want
you know how i want to be
with you
i want to be with you
why do you lock me out
i feel like i'm outside
of a steel cage
looking in
i want to be with you
why don't you let me in
i'm inlove with you
do you love me
not even
these blood soaked wrists
and burned arms
offer confort anymore
what am i to you
why don't you answer
dont leave me
i'm scared
to be alone
i want
to hold you
love you
i hate
being alone
i wish
you were
here
with me
i have
always felt
alone
unless
i am
with you
dont leave me
stay with me
love me
the way
i love you
i don't want
to be alone
anymore
I will be with you
in the brightest of light
in the blackeswt of dark
i will be beside you
even if we are far away
supporting you what ever you do
hoping everything works the way you want
remember where you came from
knowing where you will go
I am here for you
as i lay here alone
tears strem down my face
blood flows from my wrists
the light fading from my eyes
would it be better if i never woke?
would i just be memories forgotten?
would you ever love me?
i know i will wake
i hate myself for what i have done
i wish to return to when those memories were made.
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i feel her lay on my chest
i feel her body upon mine
i feel her heart beat with mine
i feel her each breath
as she lays with me
i hold her close
as if i will never let go
smelling her scent is enough
to make all my pain go away
just being with her
makes nothing else matter
when i open my eyes to see her
she is not there and never was
then i am crushed
by the weight of my own pain
Thinking of you
where ever you are
thinking of you
time flies
before i know it
today has
come and gone
when i am awake
you are in my thoughts
when i am asleep
you are in my dreams
even now
i think of you
i pray to god
for your happiness
i wish to be
with you again
always thinking
of you
and always
loving you
PeacefulRuler ConsecratedToGod by Pained-Heart, literature
Literature
PeacefulRuler ConsecratedToGod
cast your cares
on the lord
and he will
sustain you.
he will never
let the
righteous fall.
trust in the lord
with all your heart,
and lean not on your
own understanding.
in all your ways
acknowledge him
and he will direct
your path.
As I lay here
on my soaked pillow,
soaked with my tears
I whisper
I love you
even though
you are not there.
I know
You are leaving me,
I wish you weren't.
I want you to stay,
and you want to go.
All I want
is to be with you
forever.
As I lay here
all I can say is
I love you.
For you i would give... by Pained-Heart, literature
Literature
For you i would give...
I give unto you
Of most precious,
Worth more to me
Than any stone.
It is more fragile
Than glass,
And yet
It has been crushed,
Dropped to the floor,
Thrown upon the wall,
And each time shattered.
Each piece
I have set back into place.
I give it to you
With every shard
In it's place.
With gentle hands
I give it to
With care and hope.
I know you
Will care for it,
I trust you with it,
And…
I love you.
why would she choose him over by Pained-Heart, literature
Literature
why would she choose him over
why would she choose him over me?
he beats her
blames her for his mistakes.
why him over me?
he screams
yells and throws
breaks things
over me she chooses him?
she says "enough"
he says "I'll change"
buys her a ring
he lies
she knows
so why...
choose him over me?
I do not love her
because she is beautiful,
but to me she
is beautiful because
I love her.
when she is near
I can feel my heart beat,
when she is far
I wish she were near.
do i love her?
yes, always
does she love me?
I don't know...
i am sorry
but i have nothing
nothing to give to you
for your birthday
i have no money
to buy you a gift
i have nothing
to make for you
all i can offer you
is a piece
of my heart...
i'm sorry mom
i've got nothing
to give you for
mothers day
i've no money to
buy you something
no materials to
make something
all i can give you
is the love i have
for you, mom...
i'm walking though, through these woods of old, i've been travleing for days through these trees, sleeping on the mudded ground, tripping over the fallen branches and the raised roots. days of this, this torment i've been forced to endure. as i'm travling through what seems like the eldest part of the wood i stopped by a sound, a sound of water...dripping.
i follow the sound until i see a ring of stones rising from the groound, and in the center was a pool of water, it was apparently came from a spring behined the rocks, i could see the watter drip from between them. i was about to go down and get a drink when i saw a girl, she was bathing i
as i stand here
waiting for you
thinking of you,
i stand here
waiting for you
waiting to ask you
my question,
as i look up
i see you with him
holding his hand
you pass me by
without a glance,
i feel cold
as my heart sinks
in my chest,
i wish i were dead
i never even asked
i wish i were dreaming
i want to wake
but i already am,
why him, why not me?
i've been wanting
to be with you
but i was always
to scared
to ask
but now
i'm to late
and it hurts
i wish i were him
or you were with me
as before i'll be here
still waiting...
as i walk through these trees, i search, to find the one i've lost. i continue walking for days, sometimes without stopping, only on the paths the animals make. a whisp of wind came by me, it caries a stench with it, one i knew well, i stopped, for a wind to carry this far in these woods, whith these tall and mighty trees is highly unlikely...unless some one brought it with them.
i draw out my scythe and step off the path, i hear footsteps, form above in the trees and some on the earth. i quickly leap into the trees to avoid the ones on the ground, whispers come from all around me, i take one quick slash with my scythe around me and in
as i sit here
at this table
of etched glass
i wait, for you
i sit staring
into my tea
thinking...
i hear
the door open
i look up to see
it's not you,
i feel my heart
sink in my chest
i sit here
for you
my friend
so close
yet far
even if
you never come
i'll still be here
waiting for you.
Birthday and MCM London Comic Con! by DestinyBlue, journal
Birthday and MCM London Comic Con!
I leveled up! Had a boss fight with depression over the winter, and while I had to restart a few times I made it! *Victory
theme*
Thanks for sending me power crystals in the form of your kind messages, they helped me vanquish the beast 💙 😊
I spent my birthday around some of the most beautiful plants in the world at Kew Botanical Gardens. A a good reminder that I'm still growing too...
I can very happily say - yes - I will be at MCM London Comic Con! There will be some new drawings ready for you (one I should have online very soooon)
Come and hang out at booth DB1, yes, not even kidding, my booth number is DB1, how perfect
at this point i'm in the prosses of tranfering everything from my old accout to this one. for anyone watching my other account 'Sepheroth' i will probibly delet that sometime soon (soon as in if/when i get to it which i am lazy and may be a wile).
i also relized i havn't submited anything or done much in a long long time so i'll see if i can get to that.
guys repost as "how to be a good boyfriend" if your single, or "i do these things for her" if you do have a girlfriend.
girls post as "how to treat me right" if you're single, or if you do have a boyfriend post as "he does these things for me"
-give her a hoodie of yours to wear so other ppl know she is yours
-Leave her sweet texts to wake up to
- Sneak up behind her
- Grab her by the waist
- Do anything to make her smile
- Always make her laugh
- tell her shes beautiful not sexy
- tell her she has amazing eyes
- when your friends walk by say this is my girlfriend
- Say i love you to her face not JUST over the phone
- if shes sad
new journal...after...over a year...
so...i'm now an uncle, my neise is four months old and she's as cute as can be and just loves to wiggle around in her car seat and laughs up a storm wile she's at it...
both me and my mother think my dad hit and is almost over his mid-life crisis...(few months) and my grand father's house is having problems as well as my aunts...
in other news...people and pregnatcies...a friend of mine of a few years is having a baby, i was and still am partialy shocked. no i'm not the father. but the funny thing is the same time she got pregnate a close friend of mine was also...unforchenetly she had a misscarrage afe